Say Goodbye to Yesteryear..Say Hello to New Possibilities

 What a concept. 2013 has seen more than its fair share of sorrow,pain and confusion. We have experienced deaths in the family both literal and metaphorically. We lost the opportunity see have the daughter we have always dreamed of having one day and that alone is something that is still raw and fresh on certain days.. My heart pains for that fact. However, 2013 has also seen the end of some exciting chapters as well. I have graduated school(finally) and can now approach 2014 with a new chapter waiting to unfold. God will never bring you to it if he has not intention to bring you through it....... Many times I repeat this to myself even when it is hard I will praise him.. After all the pain this year has given I was not sure that my marriage would withstand it. But, it has... is it the same? No it is not. I don't think it ever will be. That doesn't mean it is bad just that it is different. Kind of like fellow prisoners of war that make it through but not without the cuts, bruises , deep gaping wounds and several scars that are not always seen. That brings me to this..... What than can I do this coming year to make sure this poison is not brought with me in to the new year? Well, I can CHOOSE to think different..I can CHOOSE everyday to focus not on the past but on the future, to love and be content with what i DO have instead of what I am lacking.. God will provide..one way or another he will. He knows what is best and if that means I do not have the daughter my heart longs for than i guess that is what it means... with time comes acceptance and right now all i have is time.